Hope we did you proud

Yesterday was the final journey for my friend who decided he wanted to go to eternity. Up at the crematorium about 60 people had gathered, half of them from work. When spence arrived we got one of our battery power lorries to lead the convoy along with us walking two by two in front. I was proud to be at the front leading the journey along the 500ft or so to the chapel.

Once inside it wasn't any normal celebration of life, there was talk of my friend through his life, his caring and unselfish character and how we all wanted to know why he did it and how his family hopes it will stop someone else doing the same.

At the end we were allowed to go and touch the coffin instead of the usual disappearance through the curtains.

With over 60 people it showed how popular he was and how anyone of us could have been approached, none of us wanted to be there if we could help it as he was only 41, but we were to say goodbye to him.

His dad thanked us for our procession to the chapel as spence loved his job and the people he worked with and I felt proud to have been part of it, to help my friend on his final journey.

I did visit him in the chapel of rest at the start of the week, spent around twenty minutes with him telling him what I had been up to at work, telling him off for leaving us, as well as the speck of dirt on his finger. But asked him why why why and told him how he could have talked to anyone of us, before placing a card I had made for him with a message in his hand to take with him.

The only comfort I got was to know he was at peace, lying asleep in his now resting place and knowing that he was looking down and no doubt wishing he had actually talked to someone, but knowing how he left us I knew it wouldn't have been painful unlike the pain he left his family and friends in.

So spence mate, at least now you're at peace and I hope we did you proud, just wished you talked to us, but at least now you know that actually their was a second option.

Rest in peace mate